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[edit] My Endless Spiral
This page is not entirely "user-friendly" I think you want this page: User:CircafuciX for the average, usual information. If you care for in-depth information, this is as far as you can possibly walk into my soul so be warned. Yes, I refer to my personalities, psyche and everything about me as "My Endless Spiral" or let this personality suck you in. It may be strange to talk about me, but this is basically my encyclopedic equivalent or a place to reveal some inner thoughts of mine I cannot fully explain in person and for a future reference would remain here as long as it can (which I hope is forever).
The information is generally for the people who don't know me, so the ones who actually do, it's best to leave. no problems. Also, if you do know me, I am wondering about your decency towards me.
[edit] Myself in General
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I have three main personalities and inner personality that often rise up throughout the day depending on whats going on with me. They are:
- Metalhead mentality - the love what you do, no-one-can-tell-me-otherwise perspective.
- My true self - I could basically finish this off by saying I'm very much like Rocko with a little personal "me-stuff" slammed in there but I am specifically; generally respectful, attentive, patient, easy-going, conscious, original, nostalgic, rebellious (good), good-intentioned, innocent, creatively humorous, eccentric, random
- My outer self - mysterious, distant
- My inner self - intensely soulful, creative, imaginative, inventive, loving and aspiring.
Basically you won't find anyone quite like me, my type of personality percentage is really at 2% (of all men) and 1% (of all women) (idk where it is from but I got it somewhere). I live to be different, to sometimes stay away from the norms to have a unique perspective on things, I live for endless possibilities, to see the real variation of life, to live life's journey, to find the hidden virtues of many things and to be loved for who I am.
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I wouldn't be musically where I am now without these explored genres. I tried punk at age 12 and was blindly listening to it I admit. Then Nu-metal/hard rock and alternative rock at 14 which I also admit and even some rap before punk rock. After I finally decided to move up to the next level because I think it didn't obviously appeal to me and was looking for a change to find something perfectly me and one summer basically changed my life musically as I expanded genres from my own curiosity. I went for the more underground and started dis-liking the mainstream contents (especially for their angst and too much lovey-dovey topics) and found appreciation for many kinds of music. The bands that influenced me the most are; Tool, Early Metallica and classics like Pink Floyd and Led Zeppelin which extended my genre-liking soon to breach into the death metal and heavy metal realms. Tool was well..., more underground before 10,000 days and at first it was a little difficult to grasp its music after awhile. I found out the band was completely amazing in musicianship and so much more that it would be hard to summarize it here, they are nearly perfect, a great progressive alternative metal band. They have interesting backgrounds and stories behind them and have great artistic music videos that compliment their music. Their songs are very heartfelt and just go beyond reason and make you think of what the lyrics could mean and their hidden messages are a nice touch as well. Metallica yes they maybe overly popular now but before they were a great band and I could even hear why the old stuff was better. They helped me get out of the hard rock and into thrashy metal and into subjects different to me. The crazy part about first listening to Metallica was because I was into punk music at the time and Sum 41 did a cover of "For Whom the Bell Tolls" and I enjoyed the song a lot so I asked myself hmm... lets try Metallica they sound like a cool band. So I first listened to Ride the Lightning and was amazed by their album and it made me want to get the rest of their CDs so I asked some people online of what was good for me to get and I understood why they said anything until Load was truly buyable. My favorite song was "Master of Puppets" and favorite instrumental by them (even now) is "The Call of Ktulu". Led Zeppelin no question was a band I have actually never listened to until some seven years ago (2000) and I really enjoyed listening to them as they got me into the mood for what metal should be like. I got into them after watching a video somewhere and I wondered what the song was and it turned out to be "Black Dog" and I tried their Led Zeppelin IV album and was blown away. My favorite song by them is "Kashmir" as it feels like a stretching desert type of song and I really enjoy listening to it. Pink Floyd... I liked their progressive-psychedelic-space rock style and it really expanded the kind of music I would listen to later on. I can't remember the time I started with them but it was around the time when I picked up on Led Zeppelin. "The Dark Side of the Moon" is one my all time favorite songs by them. Currently "(Don't Fear) The Reaper" is my favorite love song (or at least to me feels like one) by the band Blue Öyster Cult.
For some reason I think I've always known in my teen years that there was music out there "larger than life" or heavier but at the time I looked at it like it was just separated only by "hair metal" (was very interested with the genre but I looked as it like traditional heavy metal styled which I even tried Quiet Riot one time), death metal and some form of music that was less extreme, something like thrash but I did not wish to explore the underground because of the initial thought of it as evil/gory (or other questionable themes) or concerning too much "love" for my buck and that the fans were just crazed with fandom and were simply geeks and nerds with hoodies and all that. I realized how wrong I was as I saw what a lot of different bands looked like, I was amazed to find out that some were as normal looking as me, while the fans pretty much acted a bit like me and that's basically how my appreciation for real heavy metal was finally won in the Summer of 2005.
Before all this I was interested in classics and started listening to various bands and they helped me find a different style and basically took me back to their time which to me, is a great feeling. I think these bands were meant for me and think I finally found myself music-wise, I thank them all.
Tool actually really did help me like a tool would, I used them and they influenced me very much and now I can freely find bands that are worth a listen or two, so I thank them very very much for directing me the right way.
The band Alice in Chains was formed in the year of my birth (1987) and feel as if they were a perfect find on my part and were another band that helped me to "find myself".
Meshuggah was actually the very first "death metal" band I have ever listened to. I never had anything more anotonal and heavier in my whole discography than them (and maybe still for anotonal) and then started what I only knew as "Extreme metal" and then started with the melodic death metal bands; In Flames, Dark Tranquillity, At the Gates, Soilwork and I even went to melodic black metal somehow with; Ancient and Vesperian Sorrow which all I could remember and the albums being early ones first. My taste went for melo-death and here I am now. I should also mention that I thought those melodic death metal bands were true death metal and came to realize when I joined Wikipedia that they definitely were not. At the present (October 2007), I don't go for anything Satanic or Murder-Cult which is what I thought of black metal when I finished listening to those albums and that means no death metal of that type either.
I am currently awe-inspired in the same way Tool has inspired me with the Australian progressive metal band, Alchemist and find them an eerily-perfect-find next to the band of the same genre, nearly same influence, (but different sub-genres), Tool. They are basically just what I've been currently and specifically been looking for in a band. I find them being very like me (with Nick Wall looking very a like) personality-wise/even action-wise and I even started to dress like them 6 months ago 4 months before I knew they existed with that semi professional-casual look. They are somewhat simplistic, ordinary people on the outside with a hidden complexity within like me in a way and thats something that would never be understood if they were to meet me without knowing whats beyond my shell. Some of their lyrics are basically some thoughts I have or been having. I ordered their Australian version and all I need now are those early demos. One interest that I have similar to theirs is mountain biking or biking in general which I find very cool. They are a great band to me, I love their style and I like the people who play it as well.
I like to practice death growling which is a talent I didn't know I had, till I tried it in February 2007 and I think… I am quite good at it. I think I should use it and be in a band as one but I'm more the sideshow than the leader, even so, they still can't be without the sideshow. My growls are low and quite deep because my voice is apparently low but I can also change my tone to other types of growls. Some styles I have are; deep and low, midrange, some slower, some faster and some a bit higher pitched and lately very high pitched shrieks. My core death growls are similar to Opeth's growls which are low and deep. I experiment and practice them to see what kind of range I can develop and I have currently been practicing shrieking vocals of black metal, which I might say it is almost as good as my death metal vocals. It is a little hidden addition to who I am. I have all this but one thing I don't know how to do is sing and I hope to maybe be able to sing cleanly one day. Besides this my sister is a profound chorus singer but it's a little hard to cope with her liking of screamo/alternative rock/metal bands but thankfully I think she is getting out of that hole and is looking for something heavier: which is metalcore and now listens to Gojira and is just scraping the surface of death metal.
I think I would be a natural guitar player. I want to play and will most likely learn how to play bass guitar, rhythm guitar (or regular guitar) and maybe even acoustic guitar as well especially in my spare time.
I have less interest in using drums but I like to tap beats to my songs sometimes when I'm bored. I have a good ear for rhythms and can almost manipulate them through my mind and even can create instrumentals in my head that sound like no other. Also my father was in a jazz band as a Percussionist in Paris and used the washboard and drums which shows that the music genes are obviously there as a possible occupation for me musically.
My first instrument I played (with some consciousness) is the recorder and later the Clarinet (Almost picked the violin) which I obviously didn't want to continue after middle school. As a child, I rarely listened to music it was basically anything that was playing around me or some random tapes that my parents would play in the car on long trips. I noticed I had a good ear on sounds and started humming back game music in my head. I started to listen to music basically at the age of 13 but my taste in music was horrible back then and was into mainstream music. Now, I am looking for bands that fit my style or just to try something new that I could get used to and respect.
I listen to various forms of music with nothing out of my grasp, just the things that don’t need that clenching, only a walk to the trash bin, or something too far from reach, I'll make sure to jump for it.
I like it complex especially in lyrics so that means, for a song to be a masterpiece it must be complex in lyrics and atmosphere, if too definitive of lyrics when you hear it, then therefore it is mediocre in complexity. (but doesn't mean that it is trash (not thrash) music)
I don't care what language a band is singing, it's all about if their compositions are in check.
I like to try out new genres and bands using Wikipedia for the sources, so I can get an idea of how they will sound like, before I go on the go-ahead.
Ettore Rigotti is basically my reflection as a rocker, a metalhead, a soloist with some kind of musical gift but I just take it as a kind of example. He somewhat acts like me behind those glasses, hair and cigarette.
I am currently interested in the Australian metal scene and wish to see whats "down under" :) in Australian heavy metal. I am also getting into doom and death/doom and symph/melo black metal and I'm also looking for more thrash bands and experimental bands that use heavy psychedelia in their works.
There is a big chance that whatever band/album/song I may be listening to, that I'm actually editing it.
Interesting music articles:
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[edit] I love:
Guitar solos and double guitar solos that make you cry for more, ballads that bring you back in time, sounds that teach the ears, distant riffs and death growl-clean vocal virtuosos. Genres: melodic death metal, progressive death metal, Heavy metal, Symphonic metal, Power metal, Progressive metal and anyone who respects true compositions of any form and anything that sets everything apart from the norm. My favorite genre is progressive death metal or in rock terms; metal/progressive influenced-psychedelic rock or if theres a death metal band that mixes psychedelia I'm way for it! Tell me about a band if you know of one!
[edit] I like:
These genres need more exploration but it's just a matter of time before I like them a lot. Genres: Viking metal, Speed metal, Industrial metal, Sludge metal. When people wear a band shirt to a band I like (especially underground ones). When a song I like is playing in the cafeteria, I am attracted to people who have that band member look if you know what I mean, I feel as if I can get along with them very, very well.
[edit] I'm ok with:
Basically genres that mix with other genres that make it more interesting and feel more accomplished or I actually would like more mixing with new genres and I am a sucker for experimental types of music. I think there is actually, pretty solid rap out there, which would of coarse be underground rap that go for a more rock feel to their music and stay away from the usual contents of rap, hip-hop and r&b. It's just what you look for and what you can find. Very carefully chosen true Rap/Hip-Hop/R&B, then again it is more a respect for specifics, than a commitment to the entire genre itself (which makes it a hailstorm in hell's chance that there is a good artist out there than most radio and TRL trash that is played). Also Metalcore, nicely done Hard rock, bagpipes and the use of any instrument in music.
[edit] I dislike:
When bands lose their gifted style like Mettalica or any band with that same untimely fate. Oldies music and anything similar makes me sleep. People that take on the slam-on approach to music with no concern for content or style that it just makes it unlistenable in the end and the best song is their music video and who would of thought that, that would be their "best song"?. When people think of me as evil or something just because I listen to death metal, I'm sure all other metalheads think the same for the mainstreamers.
[edit] I am disgusted by:
People who are very musically narrow. The following music is basically walk-out-trash to me: country, emo, punk, Nu-Metal, pop and also mainstream Rap which I can’t stand…. People who listen to what I think is deathly, horrible, trashy music. Those singers that sound like they are "pretty boys" and most likely are, it just sickens me. When an annoying, horrible song comes on at the cafeteria. When someone is blasting a song I hate near me (I feel like going over there and destroying what is making that horrible noise but I control myself…). When someone says your music "sucks" to me (which I don't see anyone doing) -I will respond by ignoring you and too bad if you want or like to get this kind of attention, I will let this attention suffer before me. Thank you horrid and hair-ripping-annoying people.
[edit] I might try or I'm unsure of:
Basically I find these genres evil beyond reason (but just doing it on purpose because they can), depressing, profane, way too dark for me, gory, unacceptable content-wise (iykwim), maybe too different for me to readily accept and even cult-like. If there is any hope that these bands aren't as bad as they are then I might go ahead. Very Melodic black metal is probably the furthest I will go. Genres: Folk metal, Gothic metal, Black metal, Doom metal, Grindcore, Drone metal.
I have seen the light (or a shade of light) for some Grindcore (nearly all the way), Doom metal (half-way), Gothic metal (1/4 way/to a min), because when I look at it some of their lyrical usages might actually appeal to me, I would like to thank Alchemist for their Grindcore twinges but I would stay away from the stuff I don't like (up there^).
[edit] Complete list of genres I listen to
For some genres theres a certain limitation because I'm not as interested in those genres. I don't hate genres only certain artists. It's hard for me to hate music in general.
Genres are listed of how much of the certain type I listen to. The ranges are as follows and have a specific number starting from the two extremely low areas; elements to a song: 0, entire song: 1, next are more entirely an album - a band and etc:; very low: 2, low: 3, moderate: 4, moderately high: 5, high: 6, very high: 7, extremely high: 8; favorites or selected few are in parenthesis
[edit] Bands I really enjoy listening to
Note: This is not in any way my favorites list. I will list the album that started it all as well. I will also list what the bands genres are (even the very minor genres that may just be an element) despite the official genres here.
- Alchemist (Lunasphere the dark tribal, spiritual, eerie psychedlia stuff is all I ever wanted to hear, it was basically the style I been searching for, (for 3 years!). I was awe stricken by listening to them for the first time.)
{death metal, grindcore, progressive metal, progressive thrash metal, thrash metal, pyschedelic metal, tribal music, australian music, "surreal music", "surf thrash", "abduction metal"}
- Amon Amarth (Once Sent from the Golden Hall) {Melodic death metal, viking metal, "battle metal"}
- Amorphis (Elegy I loved the variation that "Cares" had. I just love the atmospherics in that song) {Death metal, progressive death metal, folk music, "Celtic art", modern metal/rock}
- Bal-Sagoth (A Black Moon Broods Over Lemuria) {Symphonic black metal, symphonic metal, epic metal}
- Catamenia {Melodic black metal, melodic death metal, progressive metal (mixed in and mostly mid-period)}
- Dark Tranquility (The Gallery) {Melodic death metal, symphonic metal, modern rock/metal}
- Disarmonia Mundi's (Nebularium) {Progressive death metal, melodic death metal, progressive metal, alternative metal/modern metal}
- Edge of Sanity (Purgatory Afterglow) {Progressive death metal, technical death metal, melodic death metal, technical metal, progressive metal, progressive rock}
- Gojira {Thrash metal, death metal, progressive metal, sludge metal}
- Some of Hypocrisy (The Arrival) {Death Metal, melodic death metal, progressive music, blackened death metal, "abduction metal"}
- Iced Earth {heavy metal, power metal, thrash metal, speed metal, progressive metal}
- Early In Flames (started with: Lunar Strain - ended with: Colony) {Melodic death metal, "melodic" metalcore}
- Insomnium {melodic death metal, progressive metal, doom metal (5%), folk music (.3%)}
- Into Eternity {Melodic death metal, progressive metal, metalcore, melodic black metal (only some vocals)}
- Luna Sea {progressive hard rock}
- Mastodon
- Early Metallica (Kill 'Em All - The Black Album) {thrash rock, thrash metal, progressive thrash metal, speed metal}
- Neurosis {Souls at Zero)
- Nightwish
- Nile (Annihilation of the Wicked) {Technical death metal, brutal death metal, oriental metal}
- Opeth {Progressive death metal, progressive metal, death metal, progressive rock, progressive doom metal}
- Orphaned Land (Their Magnum Opus) {Death metal, gothic metal, oriental metal, progressive metal, "operatic metal"}
- Pink Floyd (The Dark Side of the Moon obviously)
- Porcupine Tree
- Queensrÿche {Progressive metal, heavy metal}
- Sadist (-Lego)
- Scar Symmetry
- Soilwork (started with: Steelbath Suicide - ended with: Figure Number Five)
- Sonata Arctica {Power metal, progressive metal, symphonic metal}
- Tool (Aenima) {Funk metal (early stuff), progressive rock/metal, art rock inspired, neo-psychedelic rock, alternative metal, alternative rock, experimental rock}
- Vesperian Sorrow (Regenesis Creation) {Black metal (early, mostly elements where the symphonic music stops), symphonic black metal, melodic black metal, dark metal (elements)}
- Voivod
- Wintersun {Melodic black metal, melodic death metal, extreme power metal, progressive metal, folk metal inspired, symphonic metal, "winter metal", "astronomy metal"}
[edit] Bands I listen to
I removed how long I listened to the bands since it is too hard to keep editing it after a time. My music listening history should clear it up for an in general view of when I listened to these bands. I've also added movie/game soundtracks I enjoy as well. * at the end of the name, denotes one of my favorites of all time.
[edit] Bands I used to like, *cough*, *cough*
Why I listened to these bands for a time is beyond me...:
[edit] Bands I hated/disliked long ago on my first listen
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[edit] Television
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Television Related Userboxes
Hint: My 2 favorites of all time; one has ended since 10 years (add one year after each year from 2007) and one is still playing from the year I was born.
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I come from the Net--through systems, peoples, and cities--to this place: MAINFRAME |
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[edit] An era when we were channel-surfing-free
I like shows from the "golden age of television" which is my golden age of television and I think that most new shows I've seen are dreadful or just lost that vibe of what good television was supposed to be like. The television shows reflect our times as a society and honestly I can say it has gone into its depression being very nostalgic I am disgusted by a few shows and think most shows try but don't cut it. I used to be somewhat of a couch potato when I was younger probably because the shows were too good and would watch maybe too much television while being pretty busy as well with other things. I would love to watch these or older shows with someone who loves old shows. Some shows I watch are just "meh" to me and would watch them just for the sake of watching because "it's the only thing on" or that they have a retro vibe to them and watch to feel nostalgic.
I think some of the best overall shows are sadly on the The History Channel, National Geographic Channel and the Discovery Channel.
Other than the usual, I enjoy watching; Myth Busters, Man vs. Wild, Future Weapons, Cities of the Underworld and Ice Road Truckers. They may all be reality television but they removed what actually make them horrible.
My favorite childhood show is Rocko's Modern Life and still, if not my favorite show today. It's a shame that it was canceled and can basically show where Nickelodeon started going off the deep end.
Yes I admit it I am a huge fan of Rocko's Modern Life but at least I'm aware unlike those other crazy/rabid fans (while some are ok, some I just cannot bare), even though I still love the show so much that it takes too many words to describe, it is too personal to me and theres no show that could match it now, it is just too different.
My other favorite cartoon characters are; #1Rocko, #2Homer Simpson, #3Freakazoid, #4Brian Griffin (depends sometimes), and the whole Space Ghost: Coast to Coast gang mostly Space Ghost though and some various minors I still like.
[edit] I love
Rocko's Modern Life, The Simpsons and other timeless and nostalgic classics.
[edit] I like
Genres: (smart) comedy, (smart) action, sci-fi, fantasy, mystery, horror. People who talk/wear my favorite show t-shirts, I appreciate you people a whole lot especially the classic enthusiasts who don't succumb to the bitter mainstream spiral of overrated despair (damn I feel doomish, sry). I like when cartoon characters look straight at you, as in a sense they are aware that you're watching them.
[edit] I'm ok with
No in-betweens with any show (only when bored enough), I either like/love or hate them no ifs.
[edit] I dislike
When good shows leave, when people talk lowly of a show I appreciate.
[edit] I am disgusted by/don't understand
People who lived through Rocko's Modern Life and say the average show Spongebob Squarepants is better/or they like it more. They clearly don't understand RML then, so they obviously go for the easy stuff that has less thought or has nothing to cling to for awhile. Reality shows… some are horrible, some shows on [Adult Swim] and most (Japanese) anime.
[edit] "Special" Treatment Related Userboxes
Some reality shows have something to them, as some do not, I pick the some who have. Mostly ones like Survivor and most on the music/entertainment channels; MTV, VH1 and E! which in turn, I will immediately change the channel.
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[edit] List of shows I watch
This is basically shows I would regularly watch or probably will get back to watching at some time. Some being for old-time sake and the rest having that vibe or a nostalgic feel to it.
[edit] List of shows I watched
It is basically the first couple of shows I watched that weren't considered entirely kiddie. Here are shows I watched that I probably/really wouldn't care to watch now. Some shows I have a lot of respect for them being on the air.
[edit] List of shows that I will never really care for
Some of the shows just annoy me too much, some we can do without, some I would never care to sit down and watch it throughout the entire show and some are just too overly popular (in a bad way) that I hate hearing about them nearly all the time. I look at most of these shows as supremely boring to me or content that we could do without, just average flash, won't have a lasting effect, don't get why they didn't come off the air yet, or isn't worthy to be in the top anything, because I mean seriously, I don't want any of these shows in the top 100 in popularity or otherwise stated.
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[edit] Movies
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For me I'm a little unsure what movies I would really like but classics I will certainly like and humorous ones especially.
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This user can't wait for the movie Halo to show in theaters. |
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This user took the red pill, not the blue pill. |
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Genres: (smart or different) comedy, (smart or interesting) action, sci-fi, fantasy, mystery, horror.
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[edit] Food and Cuisine
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Specific-ish: spicy foods, the different Italian pasta, sauces and herbs, steak and others.
If some food dish/entree annoys me too much, I will be annoyed/(in unlikely cases) refuse to eat it and when it comes to food I'm ultra picky so just be careful with what you give to me, must be simplistic not too boring in taste and shouldn't take 10 minutes before I actually start to eat it.
I also think I would be a nice bar tender, I like to mix juices/sodas and additives (lemon, lime, cherry juices and etc) to make interesting mixtures for myself (mostly in the summer).
I like exotic fruits such as my favorite the pomegranate, pineapple, kiwi, star fruit, Mango, Lychee and the usual fruits; favorite Blackberry, watermelon, specific apples, strawberries, pears and most importantly I am not a "fruit".
I like to eat well... nuts because I am one (joking) my favorite nuts are Macadamias, Pinenuts, Hazelnuts, Brazil Nuts, Almonds and you can't go wrong with peanuts.
Some restaurants I would like or like to eat at are; Applebees, Olive Garden, Outback Steakhouse, Zanaro's, with the rest if I can remember more remote ones….
Only one fast food restaurant I like is: Checkers decent food with a nostalgic drive-through flair. :)
My sister wants to study to become a cook when she gets in college, talk about quality food visits pour moi.
I think cuisine is surrounded by culture and I am very intellectual you can say, when it comes to food.
One funny thing happened to me while I was at France. Ever think you could get a high with non-Psychoactive substances? Well I did. So, I will tell you what happened. So I had a Pepsi one hour before my relatives suggested me some espresso and usually I'm not up for espresso really but I felt like having one. When I started to drink it, I suddenly started speaking out that I felt really weird and was talking really loud, it was so strange and a bit embarrassing because I just blurted out questions to them while they were speaking. I don't know what happened but I felt like some random jump of mood and got a slight high off it. It may be a combination of the two drinks I had, or one of them had an abnormally high concentration of caffeine and maybe possibly a nerve twitch at the same time, I do not know....
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[edit] Games/Sports and Related
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This user doesn't care what console a game is for as long as it's fun. |
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This user enjoys playing darts. |
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This user would enjoy hiking if the opportunity arrived. |
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This user has a friend who is a certified small commercial aircraft pilot. |
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I enjoy going on long nightwalks or midnight walks. I also wouldn't mind walking in a blizzard as a normal activity (call me crazy), it makes me think of how the true north is like.
I was a Soccer Goalie from 1st grade to 6th grade and quit soccer for personal reasons when I was in 9th. I play just for fun now when I get the chance. I also was on the defense throughout my soccer years with my other friend as the "clear outer" and a person I knew was the "slide tackler" and I was the "goal passer" (or my pass ended up in a goal). I had some fun times playing soccer with some of the most rememberable moments being playing it.
My friend ("the Heffer one") is a second degree black belt in Tae Kwon Do and I enjoy tripping (tripping=coming along) with him as they allow "tag a friend along for the ride" for instance; hiking and earlier sleeping at the place for the special occasion. Also, I remember being a red belt for Karate I took in Elementary School as a special after school activity and also for the parties I had of coarse.
The first game on a personal (laptop) computer I played was Space Invaders when I was 5. Then I moved on playing Maxis simulation games which I was undoubtedly a big fan of (at age 6/7/8). Then my cousin got me started on the classic RTS's which was Age of Empires and Empire Earth respectively and later; Starcraft, Warcraft, Rome Total War and Company of Heroes. After the early RTS's I played, I moved on to more First-person shooter style games like Halo (PC), Half-Life 2 and Counter-Strike with some others I was demoing like; Star Wars: Republic Commando. Later and more recently, I got interested in Massively multiplayer online games for some reason and played games like; With Your Destiny, Knight Online, Last Chaos mostly for free because I think it was worthless to actually buy them and insane to even pay 30$ each month and even if the game was updated a lot.
I was in one of the best medieval clans for Empire Earth: The Art of Conquest "Ultima" in early 2004 and was a Council member and Co-leader for the clan and an admin for the forum and helped make the forum. The clan died two times with the first generation (2004) being the best years ever in my life playing a game online and the second (2005) also being a great time but not as great as the first generation but introduced many new faces on their way to becoming an expert player. There was a "third generation" (2007) but it quickly ended as there was sudden motivation from the leader (eponymously named Jesus) and then it was silent ever since after those four days of play. I also was in "Fire Swords" in 2003 as my first official clan where I met the leader and met many experts there and learned amongst them and then reformed as Ultima with some of the existing members of Fire Swords. Between the first generation and the second, there was also "The Elder" clan where I was named 'Elven' and the leader as 'The Elder' and we all went incognito for six months.
I like Real time strategy games, Massively multiplayer online games (debating this) and various First-person shooters and some various others.
[edit] List of PC games I played
When I was young, I loved playing Maxis games and I was a huge fan of the franchise. Now, I would still enjoy playing these bitter graphical classics. PC games:
[edit] List of Video games I played
Long ago when I was a kid around 5 or 6 I started playing Gameboy games, Super nintendo and then N64. As a kid, I didn't like playstation for some reason and still don't. I was a big fan of the Mario series until Gamecube quietly killed what a real Mario game is and was. I am wicked in Mario Kart (and was even more when I played it a lot at youth), and at beating bowser on the third stage in Mario 64. My friend would enjoy watching me fight him. Then Super Smash Bros. came out! and my best character at the time was undoubtedly Mario. My friend always says I'm killer with Captain Falcon as well and at times you don't know what hit you because when I do it right my combos would ultimately pwn you and I would run grab you and then it just gets really complicated after that. It was played at all my birthday parties (had sleepover ones) and I would always come out at the top through all the odds. Although..., my friend who was my apprentice beforehand has surpassed me and it is rather the opposite now when we fight... but no problems with that!.
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[edit] My Thoughts and Ramblings
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Sometimes I can be pretty stubborn with things and sometimes cynical at times.
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This user does not enjoy reading because he rather envision it as a full-blown movie but respects books for their accurate references or actually has a rightful excuse for not reading. |
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this user doesn't understand wikipedians who type in second and third forms on their pages and uses 2nd and 3rd forms only in his Userboxes. |
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This user is disgusted by immature pregnancy. |
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I see some of the bad sides of life and I don't like where the world is coming to, the world is becoming ridiculous to me and the great society we once had is now over (the 90's era), it blew things up in over proportion after the events of September 11, 2001 attacks and I will forever blame this event for our societal decline of ethics and values we had and I once had, etc but I don't want to be a prophet to you so I won't comment on it anymore.
Some of my dreams become huge deja-vu's in my life and I make sure to write them down and study them because at some very seconds (in real life) an event in a dream becomes reality and I remember my dream just like how I saw it. They seem to be progressively inspired, mysterious, eccentric, strange, sometimes random and very important to my life. I also think things happen to me as if they were prepared to happen and thought I was living some TV show.
I am disgusted by kids that are 5-12 that know how to curse and actually talk about sex... it twinges my mind with so much hatred that this kind of shit is happening in our world. The parents must be a horrible influence or are way too light with them. Also, girls that get pregnant at 12 or are bf and gf with someone 10 years older than them (especially at 11 or young age) that is sickening to me, just WOW. At 9, I didn't even know what gay meant or straight, curved or jagged meant... I would be in huge state of confusion if you commented that to me as a kid. Sure I started knowing simple curses like hell which I'm not exactly what show or thing I got it from but it was probably RML from that one scene. Later I understood curses and sex a bit later on from there but I would not talk about it freely at all. The life back then before 2000 was so much nicer and peaceful and kids were nearly to completely normal, now they are scarred for life from intense topical experiences by understanding and perceiving it. I am scared of them and in a state of eternal disbelief, people that grow up like that I will never respect or care for.
I think I wasn't meant to live in this world since I feel so different than everyone else (but I like it this way) and would have been better off in some comical, surreal, fantasy that is out-of-this-world, so all I can do is basically dream.
I think Astrological signs are real since most people I get along with, their signs are the opposite of mine.
I Somewhat believe in horoscopes since they have been true for the majority of the days I checked on them.
I hate debating on tense and controversial topics and think being without them will help lower your stress levels.
I think the daily news is getting sicker and stranger every day. I think people are losing it/have already lost it.
I am a cynical bastard like M.J.K. and actually quite proud of it, thanks to many horrid people out there. People need to wake up but we are in deep-sleep right now and we started sleeping in 1998, when will we wake up? and how will we wake up? I don't think its even a matter of time now, I think it will never be the same... with maybe a 2% chance that anything will change and 'god' would I be happy if it does!! -:R.I.P. 90's era:- I miss you so...
World Wide, the respect level is 20% and dwindling we seriously lack appreciation and respect in this world. I guess some people are born to be hated and put into a social group that is hated and this is just plain wrong why can't we all get along?
I am very sentimental to the environment and am pretty much an environmentalist you can say. I hate litter bugs, tree cutters, land development, polluters and the disturbance of land itself. I am very aware to the changes just some 100 feet from my home, some being 15 years ago to the present. This includes the removal of a high mound of ground on the empty lot in front of my house 13 years ago and the removal of every tree there. The horrible development plans for two new houses in our backyard where it was basically our private forest/garden (I miss it a lot), we almost protested the development (along with me at around age 12) and that was 7 years ago. Three years ago and more recently (1 year ago), the new neighbors there removed some trees on their property and I'm still pissed off at them for their unneeded removal... as they do own their property, there should still be laws, voting or something that it's necessary to remove some tree(s) especially if it upsets neighbors.... We also had a fire that occurred in the drought year, 5 or so years ago that was 300 feet from our home. Also, current Highway expansions are removing way too many trees and it remains bare and unsightly, so I hope they replant the trees to satisfy me. The topics here can refer to Alchemists's album, Austral Alien and the effects people have on the environment.
I think nothing can be perfect only 99.9% can be no matter how great it is.
I hate hearing gossip from other people and would make sure not to gossip myself. I basically hate gossipers or people that talk behind your back. I can never trust them.
I appreciate people who understand "Society Philosophy" and believe it.
I think I can socialize better over a computer than face-to-face (my conditions will most likely deviate you). If you don't understand the inner me, then you can't understand my outer self completely.
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[edit] Personality, Health/Well Being and ect.
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Personality, Health/Well Being Userboxes
Some of my conditions actually make me who I am.
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If I were to use characters/people as a template for my personality it would be a mix of Rocko and Maynard James Keenan even my name has James in it as a middle name. :)
I look ALMOST like Marko Paasikoski from Sonata Arctica (mostly his MySpace picture, Marko Paasikoski (with Nick Wall's hair from Alchemist)) that sometimes you would think it was me who walked by but I'm not as serious as him, I have a personality more comparable to Tony Kakko the lead vocalist.
I am somewhat egotistic (to a certain degree) and I mix sarcasm along with it, just for extra measures.
I am respectful but… the only exceptions are mainly music genres such as; mainstream rap, country, nu-metal, punk, emo and pop and I will actively "butcher them" as the 'lower genres'.
I am unusually attracted to Aussies (hope you don't mind), East Asians and you could say I am attracted to Euros as well. I like things that are different from that of my own but not that different actually in general speaking.
I am innocent and not seen as evil. I want to be labeled as an Untouchable since I see it on people, they are judging my every move, I have enough problems to deal with so do me a favor and mind your own business. Thank you.
I'm somewhat of a Perfectionist you can say with some thanks to my OCD.
I have level 1.5 insomnia and also trying to figure out if I have any specific insomnia-related conditions.
I am unsure if I have any other conditions affecting me and I want to find out if I have any more and what they could be. I think I might have Schizotypal personality disorder,
I don't play in cooperative sports but I would play just for fun/the hell of it.
I "Pump Iron" pretty seriously, while leisurely; hiking (when I get to it), cross country skiing (winter only) and bike riding, jog and just for fun I play tennis, soccer and golf when I feel like it. I am interested in watching Ice Hockey, and Lacrosse (maybe play) and I find football, baseball and basketball somewhat boring and over-hyped. I don't like to compete and that is one of my lifely motto's: "competition feels like a rush-of-a-mess and in the end you may win but you have a solution, something you can never lose; a more satisfying way to life, is to slowly take it in and give it patience and love because in the end, we're all "losers".
I drink responsibly (or would {considering the fact I'm not even 21 yet})
I have Arachnophobia!!! (5 feet clearance for me, nothing "too extreme")
I am scared of huge talky crowds and starting conversations because of my asperger syndrome and struggle with it at times. Often people think I am slow and retarded-like but I am a better person than they are, if they think lowly of me like that. I rather be talked to is all I can say. It just takes me more time than other people to formulate what I want to say and it usually is well-said). I like it personal (1:1) or a group activity that requires little to no socialization. I like to open up as slowly as I can, so the relationship will be strong and endless and likely not fail when you give it all or nothing. You will learn to love me/like me or hate me...
The comic: Zits has a lot of my antics mostly towards my parents, how my parents are like and some habits which I need to work out.
It is painfully hard to classify my kind of personality so I will say I'm just freaking weird in a good way and I like it that way.
I don't small talk. I am scared to talk to new people I don't know (and have been like that from my very childhood) but if there is a need to, I WILL do it. I may seem that I am a bit distant out there but I am merely waiting for your appreciation and if I don't see it I will simply remain silent, then possibly a commitment and after love for some of those awesome people. I use formal speaking with big words too much (reason: Aspergers Syndrome). On purpose, I type things incorrectly or with no sense of grammar, while actually being conscious about it (in IMing or internet talk). I somewhat despise people who never break away from what they do normally all the time, I find them to be boring (especially if they do it on a messenger service like AIM. I type random things, create my own words by adding prefixes and suffixes to them with countless other things and over react a lot using the dreaded … and 5x one ..... and also the lone exclamation point !. The way I type to people I trust really defines the true inner me.
I don't like long talks and am usually uninterested unless you get me going, I rather do some long activity (like going on long walks) or watch the night fade in and out or the clouds rolling in and out and watch it all maybe with someone by my side.
Off Wikipedia (or the computer for that matter) I am a totally different person but my inner self has a lot of Maynard in it and my outer expressions and the antics I perform are VERY Rocko-like and I tend to be hugely easy-going and respectful because of their influence on me. In the past especially, yea….
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[edit] My Preferences
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I'd rather 'Rock Out' than 'Party'.
I think Winter is cold and mystical
I think Fall is artistic and easy-going
I think Spring is 'colorful' and "arid"
I think Summer is heat exhaustion and perspiration
I do not think I am a nerd at all, I actually despise their presence especially if they are unaware of being one. Basically they must be aware of being one in the first place, then and only then, I wouldn't mind them.
I don't mind gays unless they romanticize in my presence but I don't mind being around them every day or even being friends with one, but as always, in the end, it is morally wrong and I think they are aware of that as long as they are aware, I will respect them.
I will basically respect anything, any place and anyone that comes at me. I'm just that type of guy, with a hidden respect for everyone even if they annoy me and break out the bad within me, I will always remain this way. If you deserve to be hated, then you deserve to be hated. If you deserve to be liked, then you deserve to be liked and so on.
I prefer white chocolate over dark but I don't hate other chocolates.
[edit] My turnoffs
Snobs, stiffs, politician-crazed people, overly religious people, people who instantly rule someone out just for being different, people who try to put me down, (an all-three-catastrophe of being fat, smoking, with a bitter personality and attitude), loud-mouth people, bodybuilders=cocky and self obsessed and all around horrible type of people (I know only one person who is actually very polite and it may look like it but I'm not jealous at all, I'm just trying to figure out why you like bragging about yourselves), preppy people, bratty "popular" blond girls or those type of girls in general, people with absolutely no care for the world (litterbugs for e.g., etc.) or others in need, people having rash decisions (my friend being an exception to that), total nerds/geeks, cold-hearted people, stupid and ignorant comboed people, people who don't appreciate a little joke, mess around or comedial comment now and then, very impatient people/people in a rush, jumpy energetic people, people who can't think for themselves (rely on popularity) and probably many more.
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[edit] My turnons
People who are traditional, rational, committed, creative, respectful and appreciative in many things, caring, patient, nice, generous, give you a chance, give you advice and help you, don't rule you out, people who have a strong liking/love of one or the same subjects I have, someone like me.
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[edit] My Beliefs
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My Belief Userboxes
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This user is interested in spirituality and but actually contacting the spirits is just plain weird to this user. |
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This user believes in the existence of a human soul or spirit. |
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I Know Jesus was a real man but can't find proof of what this "god" actually is and why people think something is there, quite ignorant they are, they better just wait and stop trying. To me it's a waste of time and even laughable, you are going to heaven, hell, getting stuck in Limbo, on Earth as a spirit or reincarnated. No one is controlling you, just live a peaceful and unsinful life. I think there is most likely a heaven/hell, then theres probably complete darkness which would just not be right, spiritlife/afterlife or reincarnation which all could be true, it still is unknown what happens to us when we die but there sure are outside forces around us but that doesn't necessarily mean there is a god. Our god is only within ourselves because we created the thoughts of a religion and most things in history tend to be wise tales that are often just exaggerated. It is something to look up to even if it is not there. Maybe I am an "Heavenist" or the belief that there is only a heaven or one place where everyone goes despite of what they have done in life.
The first thoughts of agnosticism was when I was 11-12. I asked for God to help me and I warned him (I gave him 3 tries on other dates I intensely prayed and it was the third) if nothing good came out of my intense prayer to him that I would not ask for anything of him ever again. I then became an Agnostic. I also looked towards the spiritual sides of life for help as well and it seemed to be a good replacement.
I believe in spiritualism but I think mediums are going a bit too far, yet I still like watching exorcisms and hauntings on TV at times. I certainly think spiritual a lot but that doesn't mean I am exactly an Occultist.
At George Washington School there is a ghost rumor in the swamps at the end of the soccer fields and I live very close to a cemetery but that doesn't mean I gravedig. I also live near Sleepy Hollow where the legend took place. You can be skeptical of me or think I am "of needing 'help'", but a few times I have seen small orange blurs of light with one experience being very vivid. I also love to dream (not about what I aspire to become, the other kind of dream), a night without one would make me wish I had one and I love to remember dreams (even nightmares as well) I've had and then write them down into as much detail as possible and possibly see where the relation comes from. For a list of these dreams I remembered, you can find them here.
I don't mind what religion/belief you express but don't try to convert me, it's like stopping a celestial object the size of Jupiter coming for Earth, Apocalypse anyone?
Other than all this, I am seriously someone you should not be scared of.
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[edit] Miscellaneous Interests
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{might be re-organized and moved}
"Keep it secret, keep it safe" I love the Lord of the Rings movies but my roommate knows every line. I also have a liking for the book series as well, I own the 3-set book collection by the author J.R.R.Tolkien.
I love watching thunder storms.
I love the thought of endless Outer space.
I was horribly interested with Science when I was 5 years old.
I played Chess competitively when I was 6 years old and got bored of it at the age of 14 but I wouldn't mind playing it for fun and I have a 4 win trophy to show for it (I was #1 out of my entire chess team that day).
I love technology and futuristic styles (that are appealing), especially in the home
I'm interested with Bible Codes and Hidden messages like this one.
I had a great fascination for legos when I was young. I stopped when I was 15 but continued making models till I was 16.
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[edit] Random and Unclassified
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Random and Unclassified
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This user loves to reminisce and is a great "past master". |
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This user lives in the parental home, but is aspiring to leave. |
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This user doesn't understand people who dislike Userboxes and understands what some people may think of them |
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This user can't get enough of UserBoxes and wants a major revamp to their entire User Page!!! |
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I got an award for most influential artist in the 5th grade at M.A.S. [1] (1998)
I can use Auto CAD technologies, and I have the vision, the determination and soon skill, to become an Architect. It was basically all I thought about when I was young (well maybe not all the time but a pretty big portion). I would look at a building and try to tear it apart and dimensionalize it, as if I visioned how it all came together (this was when I was 8) so I think it's a sign of my unusual talents.
I think society is brainwashing us, only a few of us may have rational thinking. "Think for yourself, question authority" —Tool
I Miss the 90's way too much...since the values during these days are very sacred and personal to me.
I Like the feeling of the 80's and is probably the main reason why I got interested in metal in the first place.
I wonder what life will be like in 40 years don't you?
I Hate and know the 00's technology is the only best aspect of this era. To me the values were totally lost when it hit year 2000.
I am very attached to the old days as they are my golden moments of innocence with no care in the world with only what I love, no strings.
My favorite colors are Black, Midnight Blue and Dark Turquoise and like many other colors when mixed.
I had braces and now use a retainer every night.
I love to take blog quizzes/surveys and I find most to be dead-on (just finding a site decent enough, is hard enough though) and if anyone knows of a master survey site (for metalheads of any type) please tell me.
I have made love poems or a love-relationship decision that have become very popular (some being success stories) as requests in secret and not shown directly to the one who originally requested one, I am pretty popular with that actually dare say so myself..... the door through one person... to many others...
I am strongly against violence in the Real World but can accept it in a video game, fantasy or fiction.
I own a large crystal collection with an unknown see-through purple blocky crystal which is my favorite and a real meteorite that I can fit in the palm of my hand.
A talent you wouldn't know I have at a glance is that I can death growl and at different frequencies too. You would be surprised by what I can or could do.
I like subjects involving Purgatory, Heaven and Hell which can equal Progressive Death Metal, Power Metal and Death Metal respectively.
I am very observant, I notice things other people don't usually notice.
I am what they call "a tortured genius". My conventions of learning are very different from everyone else, I felt like it wasn't good enough for me and felt smarter than everyone around me with an unusual perception of consciousness. I worked at a considerately slower progressive rate to concentrate on things better (ADD). I have some unusual thoughts that could even be revolutionary.
I like things more specific than in general, something like "vocals" means nothing to me, death vocals, screaming vocals or high pitched vocals gives way more insight. I tend to push forward on what I want because I think it is more correct to me than what is there.
I love to experiment with and hypothesize various things. I used to make model siege weapons for example (with K'nex and Legos too) and don’t forget crossbows and archery.
My personal obligations in experimentation sometimes take the best of me, as I just continue with it for a time and move on to something else.
I think it is easier to understand me over computer than face-to-face.
I connect to things as if they were some kind of sign to me or to humanity as a whole.
This may be too revealing but here it goes:
The description of my perfect mate: A simple, respectful, heartfelt, quirky, silly, committed girl that appreciates nearly everything about me and will do everything with me and doesn't care about the height of my or her successes. The stereotype I'm looking for could be an artsy Gothic or metalhead type, but not necessarily, she could be some sort of indie style thats just different from all the rest and maybe labeled as unique and likes anything. Dresses in an artsy, unique or simplified fashion, and has a couple of the same ambitions and likings I have. Basically 100% unique is what I'm looking for.
Incorrect stereotyping to classify me: nerd, goth, gay, health freak, tree hugger but no stereotyping at all is suggested for everyone…. It is something we don't need but at times it can be a joke but not treated seriously.
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